Its been a while since I have posted, mostly because I have been working on a big, huge, scary change in my life and the decision making process sucked every ounce of brain power I possess. I have committed to staying home with Jackson til Christmas and possibly until May. This was an agonizing decision for me personally because I was torn between the need to contribute money to the household on a regular basis (and my new job was going to make us very very comfortable) to letting strangers raise my baby. Everyday I would take him to daycare it would kill me because I love being with him so much. My field is working with children with multiple issues and most have bad home lives and the more I thought about it the more I realize that by working 45 hours a week to help these kids, I was missing out on helping my kid. To be able to stay home I am putting myself into slightly more student loan debt and money will still be tight at our house but I have committed myself more than ever to being frugal and I think the reward of getting to be here for more of Jackson's firsts more than makes up for us having to not eat out as much or buy more crap to fill our house. Kirt, my DH agreed to give up his day off in the middle of the week and will keep Jackson while I do an UNPAID internship at the alternative school, this way I will still be able to graduate in May with my Master's Degree in Counseling. So what then you may be thinking?? Well I have already been in contact with a company that hires part time therapists as independent contractors so next year if all things go right I will be able to work 2-3 days a week.